Self-effacing (Mdm Chan thinks I) make my/oneself inconspicuous.
A little more
Friday, August 29, 2008 @ 6:48 PM
This is another random post I was in my room hibernating for a while when i digged up all my stuffs from primary school to now. [somehow everything seems to be found except my PSLE cert] AND, i found all of these:
Primary5! Was my first credit, i remember...and i think only about...less than ten people in the class had credit :D I was such a geek still. Maths Olympiad SIAAAA I miss being smart :/ Gold! And subsequently, I could only get Silver =.=English, Credit. I can't believe this was only last year. My score was 40/60...OK LAH, NOT THAT BAD WHAT. I think this was in Primary4 and i was in the ESB thingy..At the end of the year this UK examiner will fly down to Sg and examine us. So pressurising. I still remember her name was Mrs Daffodil or something. And my show-and-tell for this year was on my rollerblades lol. My second and last year doing this and YAY DISTINCTION! I did on my swimming cert. Yes, i can swim too. But i forgot how to already...only know how to keep afloat now. =.= This was that drama competition thing.
I don't know how this worksheet came about but yea, should be from dance lessons in lower sec.. Art class. And its superly cropped and ugly here. We had to draw the lines using ink and straw [we actually BLOW the ink with the straw wth]. So ugly lah. AND OMG, WASN'T THIS ARTICLE USED FOR PRELIMS? :O
I can lend any of you the FULL article. With all the cool pictures behind haha.
And one more thing; my english composition. It was the ONLY essay i managed to find so its precious. To me, at least. 20/07/07, In-class assignment.
Grade: 21/30 Warning: it's slightly feminist but it's generally a very mild essay. And if you hate China, don't read. Ok, there's not much of a link anyway. haha; now read it cos im uber bored and this is my third post for today cos if i don't type something i'd go crazy. Cos there's nothing else to do at home.
Sacrifice
"Please, Pa, let me go to England," Ling pleaded.
"What good will education do? You're a girl! You are supposed to stay at home and take care of your mother and younger brother! I will never let you go!"
"But..."
"Enough of this nonsense!" Ling jerked back her head as her father slammed the door to his room.
Ling hated herself. She hated herself for being a girl. A girl who is supposed to stay at home, take care of younger siblings, and cook for the family. A girl who is not supposed to receive education.
All her life, Ling had been pleading. First, she pleaded with her parents to let her go to school, which only earned her a slap. It took her many attempts and even begged the teacher of the school to persuade her parents into letting her receive an education like her brother and the other boys in the country. She would do almost anything to learn. She aspired to be a doctor. Or a lawyer. Someone to make a difference. She wanted to fight for her rights as a female. Just because she was a girl in China meant she was worthless. It meant that she was incapable of carrying on the family name.
Now, she had her chance of fufiling her dreams. Ling studied harder than anyone for the exam, and won the scholarship to continue her studies in England. However, this meant she needed to plead again.
Ling tried and tried. All failed, including the teacher's attempts. It only ended in a quarrel each time.
One day, Ling came back from school, only to find her father sitting on the veranda. His feet were neatly folded under his knees, sitting up rather stiffly upon seeing his daughter, his beady eyes staring right into hers. Ling always felt intimidated when her father looked at her this way. He was an authoritative father, who never failed to make his daughter feel slightly uneasy. Nevertheless, she had a deep respect and love for him.
"Come and sit here, Ling," his tone was fitting, like a low gutteral rumble; like thunder signalling an arriving storm. "Are you sure you want that scholarship? Is it what you really want? To leave your home here in China for some foreign country?"
"Yes, Pa, I told you and Ma my dreams, what I want to pursue. Let me go, Pa, I can make some money for you and Ma...And Ming, my brother, to live no more in poverty. Isn't that what you want? Pa?" Ling replied in a timid but determined voice.
"No. That is not what I want. Money is not important to me, Ling. You are my daughter and my daughter is more important than money. I don't want you to leave. That is why I didn't want to send you for an education. I was afraid this day would come, where you would leave me and your Ma...But if this is what you want," he paused for a while, "then go." Saying this, he slowly got up and walked to his room. Ling thought she saw something wet and shiny fall onto the wooden floorboards.
Ling finally got what she wanted. But at the expense of her family. Her father made his sacrifice of letting her leave. Was her father's sacrifice worth it? She had to work hard to create her career when she completes her studies in England. She cannot afford to disappoint her father.
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Lol, I ate two plates of fried rice typing this. x]
I drew that for art class in sec2 and i got a 7/10. =.= ROFL i suddenly remembered. I HEART THE HEART.
My MSN robots!
And something not-so-random;
Mdm Chan gave us 'scrolls' today and mine went like this:
Constance (Steadfastness)
You value honesty and justice. You are creative with a special talent for drawing. You are reliable and give wise counsel to others. You have a noble demeanour. Your calm facade belies your sensitive and vulnerable nature.
You are a kindhearted soul. You are the unifying factor in your family. Though humble, you take pride in your work and achievements. You have a heart of gold and want to reach out to people.
You thrive on change and like exploring new ideas, meeting new people, discovering exotic places. You are witty and resourceful and enjoy the company of like-minded people.
You are flexible and love challenges but tend to be impulsive. You are ingenious and witty. You have a multifaceted personality but you need to be more focused to succeed.
You are farsighted and focus on the larger picture. Your penchant for moving goalposts can have serious consequences. You recognise the equilibrium between the rational and irrational and can easily combine the two in your thought process.
It's kinda true on the whole lol. 'Multifaceted personality' is very true.
Follow me to the end of the rainbow
@ 12:56 PM
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!
k anyway, had celebrations as usual and SARAH LEONG BROUGHT HER HAMSTER TO SCHOOL.
Guess what? Last night i dreamt of a hamster too. Grey one also.
Lol, but hers was baby, so its waaay smaller. Ultimate cuteness. And it goes hyper when its on my hand hahahaa.
I shan't elaborate on the celebrations and jump on to what i did outta boredom at home;
This, is my ugly spare phone. [before picture] TADAH! I randomly put some rubberbands at the keypad area AND NOW ITS COLOURFULLLE. [after picture] COLOURCOLOURCOLOURFUL
And this one too cluttered. lol Yea, i don't have talent but whatever, you go try it yourself.
This, is important.
@ 11:28 AM
This post is necessary to testify my reason for absence [in school] today.
I had cramps. Stomach cramps. I woke up feeling all sick and even when i was bathing i wanted to just collapse and DIE. Cos even standing was being just a tedious chore.
So when i was done bathing i just plopped on my bed, hoping I'd drift to heaven or something where i wouldnt have any pain. Okay, kidding, i just lay there. Then my father came out of his room and asked me what's wrong. I don't know why and how but there was that feeling in my throat that was like a swollen bubblegum pressing against the insides of my throat. And that kinda forced my tears out. By the time i said I had cramps, I was crying so hard i could barely speak properly. I cried only 10% due to pain i think. =.=
Then he got my mum and my mum was being...well...my mum. She actually wanted me to go to school as usual. Im like [in my tearing-sniffing fit] very pain... Then she finally budged when i said there wasn't anything important today. [She thought i had prelims today lol].
So yea, that's why i didnt go to school. I didn't 'play along' with the conspiracy* and none of you ought to doubt my integrity cos no one ever has and i'd never lie on my blog. Cos it's a journal of my life and i'd never wanna remember a lie ten years from now.
I even rushed all my homework and packed my bag for today and im still wearing my school u from this morning. I was too shagged to change. And i think i should go be some random calefare with a crying scene. Sure can one. Hey, at least got money to earn.
*the 'conspiracy' is not safe to be blogged about. But it does not concern me this time.
What would I do to make you smile again
Sunday, August 24, 2008 @ 6:35 PM
It's been raining for the entire day.
I wonder why the sky's so gloomy. Maybe it's grieving for me, and maybe fellow other studs studying [or, attempting to study] their asses off. Or maybe it's another premonitition for tomorrow's geog.
Shit.
I didn't do her homework. Like i said on dewaine's blog, i just PLOPPED. In the midst of the second question. GAH why do humans have the ability to procrastinate? God, you're spoiling us, y'know.
And yea, i kinda realised that tomorrow's our last lesson in school. Well, kind of...
Cos after that is Prelims and way too shortly after is already O's.
I seriously don't even feelready.
Shit.
And i have a [very unorganized] draft of stuff happening during my hiatus [yea..i secretly broke my hiatus] but sheesh im no mood for such kinda blogging anymore. The ones where i go AHAHAHA at everything. I don't know why im so grouchy now. Maybe its just the sky.
Anyway, i think im really gonna do a genuine hiatus for now. Till idk-when.
And the song Footsteps in the Sand by Leona Lewis is damn nice. I remember i once blogged the story... Hold on i'll try to find it.
K, here it is;
One night a man had a dream. He dreamed that he was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand:
one belonging to him, and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. he also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it:
"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow ; you'd walk with me all the way. but I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints.I don't understand why when i needed you most you would leave me."
The Lord replied "My son, my precious child; I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints,
Yea, that's my sis in some competition. You can vote as many times as you want. SO VOTE. Because you're very pretty/handsome.
p/s I know im supposed to be on hiatus but who cares, really.
Crossing out the crosses
Monday, August 18, 2008 @ 5:29 PM
Came back from my chem/phy mock practical and hell, i think im so not gonna get distinction. But i dont really care since its not prelims, let alone O's.
ANYWAY, lets cut stuff short since im supposed to be starting myhardcore hiatus today, at approximately 6pm, till 6pm sunday.
AIN'T THAT AWESOME?!?!
>=O
K, whatever, so here's what i wanted to show you:
So apparently i suddenly decided to look at my blogstats which i practically neglected for like dno how many months ever since i stuffed the code into my template in mid-jan. [Half way i did go and see lah, just forgot when.]
SO, those were the stats for June 2008.
You do not really needa know what each colour bar stand for [and i cant remember anyway] BUT HELL, LOOK AT THAT NUMBER! IT'S A BLODDYF'INGLY TRIPLE SIX.
And what month is June? the 6th month.
AHHHHHHHHH MY BLOG IS SO CURSED. NO WONDER SO MANY PEOPLE BROKE UP IN JUNE. Okay. kidding. Im not that superstitious. But yea, it's kinda cool in a way. HEH.
Y'know, im totally risking being jinxed by posting this, i dont know. BUT WHO CARES. If you see this post deleted later on, means something REALLY did happen to me and you needa start worrying. =D
Alright, take care people, REMEMBER MY KEWLDORK-HIATUS AND DONT BOTHER CHECKING MY BLOG FOR UPDATES.Till this Saturday, that is.
It's when you pray with such faith that you cry, cry
Thursday, August 14, 2008 @ 4:33 PM
GAHHHH yes, just now was english O'level orals. I feel so psyched now, i dont know why. Time passed so fast, it could fly When it was all over, i said oh my oh my All i knew was that i did try To get a distinction...or didn't I?
Oops, sorry, had that impulse to do the rhyming thing again. Im waaaay too irrational now.
*exhales* So yea..lets all skip to the actual orals. I apparently didn't make my IC yet [the pink one] and so i lost some time and first-impression points maybe.
Examiner A: Good afternoon, can i have your IC and entry proof please? Me: erm, i don't have my IC. Yet. *looks at ez-link card* Examiner B: Oh..so you're younger than all your peers? Me: *shocked as to why she suddenly asked that when she's supposed to be asking me to start reading* Yea... *thinking; shit, i just said yea instead of yes* Examiners: Ahh..okay, you may start reading now.
I think it's so pleasant when you can blame everything on a late birthday. Cos i was supposed to have made it already but i didn't and everyone's like Ohh cos you 1993 right? Nice. Perfect excuse, don't you think?
Anyway;
Me: *starts reading* Examiner B: Erm, don't read so loud cos you know, the students below.... Me: *shocked again* Oh oh ok..
Seriously, i think my heart was throbbing so hard i couldn't even hear myself.
All in all, it all went so fast, and im pretty happy that one of the conversation topics was on Competition and HELL YEA I WAS PRAYING FOR IT. =D Im a bloddy lucky bitch. Bite me. Ok kidding.
I guess it works this way; when you get so disappointed with something, something else comes along and surprises you. Unfairness; some people speak of it. That's cos they never count their blessings.
But then again, i daren't say i did well for this oral. Everytime i think i did well, results are so far below expectations. Im just gonna leave it to God and pray for the best.
Aight, good luck to all those taking the orals tomorrow!! ^^
Best friends are when you both are pissed but end up laughing.
Monday, August 11, 2008 @ 11:36 AM
GAH. Im not pissed anymore. TEEE HEEEE.
Day by Day
@ 10:38 AM
It's the memories that bring repeated joy.
Saturday, August 09, 2008 @ 8:00 PM
Haha while you people were watching the NDP i was reading back on my convos. I was like stiffling my laughter in front of my comp, with my mum watching the NDP behind me. Here are some: [im always the one in light blue]
I like Narnia.
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HA! All pick-up lines are COPYRIGHT CONSTANCE. And they were all thought of on the spot. =D
______________________________________________ Speaking of tech-savvy..
And omg, Shine for Singapore keeps playing...ahh it's kinda nice anyway.
43--not that old yet.
@ 12:38 PM
It just hit me that today's already National Day.
I'm not gonna watch tv. Let alone watch that speech by LHL. I know why Singaporeans so kiasu already. Cos the gah-men also so kiasu; one speech, every channel. Can't even watch whatever the telly's for.
Okay, im just kidding. Dont sue me. Happy 43rd, Singapore!
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Hey, i think it's gonna rain. Hope you peeps at Marina Bay have your transparent umbrellas [i think they're hell cool. Can give me?]. Have fun! I'm gonna ..play my comp games. Yar. im hell much of a nerd.
Running like the wind. Well, like the slow wind.
Friday, August 08, 2008 @ 7:25 PM
[PICTURES FROM TODAY ARE ON DEWAINE'S BLOG. IM TOO LAZY TO UPLOAD.]
Yeap, today was Sports Day!
Lazy to blog bout it but yea...was so close to a medal. Ah well. Had fun anyway.
Dental was okay.....so expensive. One trip already $150. To think parents have so much cash eh..
Anyway, when i came out the first person i saw was this guy. He stared at me, i stared back THEN MY FATHER STARED AT HIM ALSO. LOL. Apparently he was tracing the direction of my gaze.
Oh yea, i forgot to bring my IC [ez-link card] so i had to manually write everything. =.= And the woman cant pronounce my name at all please.
Aight, im real lazy tonight so i shant blog much. Goodnight!
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Me: Why do we have wisdom teeth? Dad: Ask God. Do they have any use? No. Then why do we have them? Why are they called wisdom teeth? Why do they only grow when we're older? Cos they're smart. They don't have to work.
My father is so....lol-worthy.
Rhapsody of August
Thursday, August 07, 2008 @ 6:23 PM
OOO i forgot to say in my previous post. Yesterday after school when walking with dewaine, sarah and alina, we saw this guy from Bedok Green. Then all of us went like EH? HE LOOKS VERY FAMILIAR. *looks at each other* Huh? You also know him?! Yea! I always see him when walking to school!! Yea same!!!
ROFL. How much affinity do we share, i wonder. And no, FYI, hes the toot toot kind. The kind who tugs at his bag strap while walking, slightly hunched.
Today, was PC then that 3 periods of geog. I promise i was attentive for the first two but my A.D.D. acted up by the third. MM kept staring at me. Like real obviously but i was so oblivious. Till dewaine couldn't stand it and nudged me to tell me. :/ Thank goodness im a lucky bitch; i didnt get into direct trouble this time.
During english, Mrs Tay called me up while others were preparing for their oral practice to clarify my birth cert. number. Cos apparently she was wondering why im the only one whose BC number starts with '93' instead of '92'. Yea, been asked that my entire life.
Chinese; usual. Talking only. HAHA NATOness.
After A.maths, HEH! Elizabeth and i got bloddy high. xD Cracked up at like everything. Especially the reaction test. Here's the results: Elizabeth Liew: Too fast. Grabs pen even before released. Constance Cher: Waaaaaaay too slow. Lets pen drop entirely before closing...air. =.= Yea. The sad sad truth.
Oh! And Prod the monstur! And Plobbie! And Spike! haha im not gonna tell you what those are. Ahh, all in all, today was hell heavenly great. *grins* I guess when i start the day lethargic, I end the day dizzily high. Reverse logic. Lol.
Oh wait, im not done with my post yet. Yea, im a notorious long-winded blogger. Followed Lys to the tailoring shop, then the $1 shop i never knew existed and bought loadsa snacks for tomorrow. Tomorrow's National day celebrations/ Sports day/ OLYMPICS day/ dental appointment. Coolness. 08/08/08. My index no. times 3.
Eastpoint again, saw tricia and the rest, waved, intended to buy bubble tea but was too crowded to we went to this clothes shop first. While inside, we heard the girls sitting outside laughing like constantly. In a real annoying witchy laugh too. That's one of my pet peeves..
Random convo: D: I hate ___. So ugly. Me: Nah, actually i dont hate her. I like her. She makes me feel more confident. *laughs* I feel more self-assured.. *laughs more*
Finally bought our bubbletea then followed dewaine to Watsons then we met Natalie. Somemore in between stuff....then the sky became super dark. By the time i was sitting in the bustop it was already raining. And bus-stops are examples of ineffective rain shelters.
By the time i reached home the rain miraculously was reduced to a mere drizzle. Then when i switched on the comp, the rain became real heavy. Thunder gave me this major shock. =.=
I actually dreamt of the national day rehearsal, and guess who were the ones to set off the fireworks? ST. PATRICKS BOYS.
WTS.
WHYYYYY!!! I swear, i so do not know anyone from that school. Let alone like anyone there. Heck the SAC 'tradition' of getting St. Pats bfs. IM NOT INTERESTED.
And this is like the second time they're haunting me in my sleep. First time was me in this coffeeshop opposite that school, telling my friend something like "Eee..St. Pats? Not very good lah"
I don't even know if that 'coffeeshop' exists in reality.
I think i've been so haunted ever since that day my parents drove past St. Pats school and i saw how big their school was [in comparison to SAC lah] and i blurted "I should just come to this school." And my mum went "HUH? ST PATS GUYS SCHOOL EH!"
I was just randomly rabbling away..
The previous night's was waaaaaay scarier. I was getting stalked by this G-kid. Hell freaky. Literally.
Oh yea, in case you didn't know, KC girls and SAC girls are old rivals. Of what? Guys. From St. Pats somemore. *rolls eyes*
Yea apparently according to seniors [ and reiterated by dewaine], KC girls [not all, of course] hate SAC cos we 'steal' their guys. Maybe vice versa. But it seems like the sense of rivalry is coming more from them.
Then i uncontrollably said "But if they themselves cannot get the guy then why blame us!"
So lame. I swear not to get a St.Pats bf. I swear. Not that im afraid of incurring KC's wrath but YEA what's so good bout that school! Besides their nice uniform.
I think rivalry in terms of sports or whatsoever is so much more rational. Like how SJI and ACS are rivals cos of sports. [according to Jeryl]. But they have to get police on standby when they have competitions. Cos surely a fight will erupt. They even bring weapons.. Guys are so scary. Lol.
Oh and Ms. M. was saying how SJI guys make good husbands. ROFLMAOOL!!!
AH HAHAHHA okay...?
K im digressing way too much.
Anyway, school was fun today. Went to Eastpoint after, and yea, was fun. Pardon my limited vocab. Im just feeling lazy now.
I tried to camwhore with my sister's Mac again and geez, THE BATT QUIT ON ME HALFWAY. I didn't even destroy the evidence yet. So yea, she had the thrill of her life when she saw it. =.=
BUT!!! I took away her thrill just as i gave it. I destroyed alllll the pics when she walked to the kitchen to forage. HAHAHA! I'VE GOT POTENTIAL TO BE A SPY.
Who can accomplish such a task within less than a minute? ME! =D
And she was so elated she has something to blog about. That freaking try-hard. HAHHAHAA now she can only post HER own pics! Heavily-photoshopped, i confess on her behalf. I? I PS noob lah. N00bNub. Not like i really need photoshopping anyway. Heh.
Yeap. I went to sleep giggling away.
Tell me, you minions
Tuesday, August 05, 2008 @ 3:35 PM
Yea, i came to school late today. And what a bad day indeed. I was like one minute away, i swear. I saw the primary school gate close in my face. Okay, not exactly in my face but yea you get my drift.
Then i was standing beside Mrs C. while saying the pledge and cos i was distracted by this very cute primary school kid, my fist was still on my heart when it was over. Then Mrs C. had to go say as though i was doing something punishable "Finish already lah, aiyo!" =.=
Oh and now, my school is more high-tech. Heh, they scan our ez-link cards. No more filling in forms.
And Mrs C. picked on my hair. Said it was too long. I wanted to shout COME TO SCHOOL LATE ALREADY WHERE GOT TIME TO TIE HAIR! But no point. Was made to ask others for a rubberband or whatever i can tie my hair up with but no one had. So i didn't bother.
Went to hall for assembly, filled in LEAPS form and BLODDYF'. I GOT D7. HEY, my CCA's attendance was perfect from sec1 to 3 ok!? And how dare they give me a zero for Leadership, zero for participation, and zero for achievements?!?! Excuse me, who helped your school get that freaking plaque for the SKM competition? [Yea i know, the SKM one was stupid but still!!]
AND I DARE SAY I PARTICPATE. Why else d'you think i was in the drama room for 6 hours a week, huh? Bloddy hell. And when i asked the Ms. *smth, i forgot her name* , all she could tell me was that my sec4 attendance was less than 75%. Right...so i spent like about 500 hours of my life [no exggeration here] all for a grade like D7?! Tell me how i deserve that please. Before i start defaming the school and im sure Ms M. wouldn't like that.
And more bad stuff. E.maths test, i so cannot get my distinction. A.maths, class got reprimanded by Mr P. Eh wait "I don't mean for this to be a scolding session, its mean to be a wake-up session". Yea.
Recess was bad too, since my dental is only on friday and im still suffering right now on my macaroni.
CMECS was about how we ought to be preparing for our O's NOW. Mmm and she did some kinda therapy on us. REWARDS and REGRETS. Mine was about getting 9 points for L1R5. =D Regrets; needless to say.
A.maths; the canal released its....'natural fumes' again. Mr P. was so funny; he stuffed tissue into his nostrils and that was distracting as hell. When he took them out, erm..the tissue had erm...stuff.
Then was physics. As the physics rep, i was supposed to go find Mr Q. but damn, Mrs C saw me and made me tie my hair before going anywhere. Impromptu tying makes my hair look like the Audi's 'pointy ponytail' thingy. And, unlike lians, i do not like my hair to look like that.
Dewaine and i got kinda high during physics in the lab. xD Assembly, then home. OOO i camwhored with my sister's Mac. So cool lah. Let you see some:
=O I'VE A TWIN! Oh yeahhhh My twin looks like me. We got the same slanted teeth even. My mouth and jaw looks distorted here. Lol. OH! My macaroni!
Self-effacing (Mdm Chan thinks I) make my/oneself inconspicuous.
A little more
Friday, August 29, 2008 @ 6:48 PM
This is another random post I was in my room hibernating for a while when i digged up all my stuffs from primary school to now. [somehow everything seems to be found except my PSLE cert] AND, i found all of these:
Primary5! Was my first credit, i remember...and i think only about...less than ten people in the class had credit :D I was such a geek still. Maths Olympiad SIAAAA I miss being smart :/ Gold! And subsequently, I could only get Silver =.=English, Credit. I can't believe this was only last year. My score was 40/60...OK LAH, NOT THAT BAD WHAT. I think this was in Primary4 and i was in the ESB thingy..At the end of the year this UK examiner will fly down to Sg and examine us. So pressurising. I still remember her name was Mrs Daffodil or something. And my show-and-tell for this year was on my rollerblades lol. My second and last year doing this and YAY DISTINCTION! I did on my swimming cert. Yes, i can swim too. But i forgot how to already...only know how to keep afloat now. =.= This was that drama competition thing.
I don't know how this worksheet came about but yea, should be from dance lessons in lower sec.. Art class. And its superly cropped and ugly here. We had to draw the lines using ink and straw [we actually BLOW the ink with the straw wth]. So ugly lah. AND OMG, WASN'T THIS ARTICLE USED FOR PRELIMS? :O
I can lend any of you the FULL article. With all the cool pictures behind haha.
And one more thing; my english composition. It was the ONLY essay i managed to find so its precious. To me, at least. 20/07/07, In-class assignment.
Grade: 21/30 Warning: it's slightly feminist but it's generally a very mild essay. And if you hate China, don't read. Ok, there's not much of a link anyway. haha; now read it cos im uber bored and this is my third post for today cos if i don't type something i'd go crazy. Cos there's nothing else to do at home.
Sacrifice
"Please, Pa, let me go to England," Ling pleaded.
"What good will education do? You're a girl! You are supposed to stay at home and take care of your mother and younger brother! I will never let you go!"
"But..."
"Enough of this nonsense!" Ling jerked back her head as her father slammed the door to his room.
Ling hated herself. She hated herself for being a girl. A girl who is supposed to stay at home, take care of younger siblings, and cook for the family. A girl who is not supposed to receive education.
All her life, Ling had been pleading. First, she pleaded with her parents to let her go to school, which only earned her a slap. It took her many attempts and even begged the teacher of the school to persuade her parents into letting her receive an education like her brother and the other boys in the country. She would do almost anything to learn. She aspired to be a doctor. Or a lawyer. Someone to make a difference. She wanted to fight for her rights as a female. Just because she was a girl in China meant she was worthless. It meant that she was incapable of carrying on the family name.
Now, she had her chance of fufiling her dreams. Ling studied harder than anyone for the exam, and won the scholarship to continue her studies in England. However, this meant she needed to plead again.
Ling tried and tried. All failed, including the teacher's attempts. It only ended in a quarrel each time.
One day, Ling came back from school, only to find her father sitting on the veranda. His feet were neatly folded under his knees, sitting up rather stiffly upon seeing his daughter, his beady eyes staring right into hers. Ling always felt intimidated when her father looked at her this way. He was an authoritative father, who never failed to make his daughter feel slightly uneasy. Nevertheless, she had a deep respect and love for him.
"Come and sit here, Ling," his tone was fitting, like a low gutteral rumble; like thunder signalling an arriving storm. "Are you sure you want that scholarship? Is it what you really want? To leave your home here in China for some foreign country?"
"Yes, Pa, I told you and Ma my dreams, what I want to pursue. Let me go, Pa, I can make some money for you and Ma...And Ming, my brother, to live no more in poverty. Isn't that what you want? Pa?" Ling replied in a timid but determined voice.
"No. That is not what I want. Money is not important to me, Ling. You are my daughter and my daughter is more important than money. I don't want you to leave. That is why I didn't want to send you for an education. I was afraid this day would come, where you would leave me and your Ma...But if this is what you want," he paused for a while, "then go." Saying this, he slowly got up and walked to his room. Ling thought she saw something wet and shiny fall onto the wooden floorboards.
Ling finally got what she wanted. But at the expense of her family. Her father made his sacrifice of letting her leave. Was her father's sacrifice worth it? She had to work hard to create her career when she completes her studies in England. She cannot afford to disappoint her father.
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Lol, I ate two plates of fried rice typing this. x]
I drew that for art class in sec2 and i got a 7/10. =.= ROFL i suddenly remembered. I HEART THE HEART.
My MSN robots!
And something not-so-random;
Mdm Chan gave us 'scrolls' today and mine went like this:
Constance (Steadfastness)
You value honesty and justice. You are creative with a special talent for drawing. You are reliable and give wise counsel to others. You have a noble demeanour. Your calm facade belies your sensitive and vulnerable nature.
You are a kindhearted soul. You are the unifying factor in your family. Though humble, you take pride in your work and achievements. You have a heart of gold and want to reach out to people.
You thrive on change and like exploring new ideas, meeting new people, discovering exotic places. You are witty and resourceful and enjoy the company of like-minded people.
You are flexible and love challenges but tend to be impulsive. You are ingenious and witty. You have a multifaceted personality but you need to be more focused to succeed.
You are farsighted and focus on the larger picture. Your penchant for moving goalposts can have serious consequences. You recognise the equilibrium between the rational and irrational and can easily combine the two in your thought process.
It's kinda true on the whole lol. 'Multifaceted personality' is very true.
Follow me to the end of the rainbow
@ 12:56 PM
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!
k anyway, had celebrations as usual and SARAH LEONG BROUGHT HER HAMSTER TO SCHOOL.
Guess what? Last night i dreamt of a hamster too. Grey one also.
Lol, but hers was baby, so its waaay smaller. Ultimate cuteness. And it goes hyper when its on my hand hahahaa.
I shan't elaborate on the celebrations and jump on to what i did outta boredom at home;
This, is my ugly spare phone. [before picture] TADAH! I randomly put some rubberbands at the keypad area AND NOW ITS COLOURFULLLE. [after picture] COLOURCOLOURCOLOURFUL
And this one too cluttered. lol Yea, i don't have talent but whatever, you go try it yourself.
This, is important.
@ 11:28 AM
This post is necessary to testify my reason for absence [in school] today.
I had cramps. Stomach cramps. I woke up feeling all sick and even when i was bathing i wanted to just collapse and DIE. Cos even standing was being just a tedious chore.
So when i was done bathing i just plopped on my bed, hoping I'd drift to heaven or something where i wouldnt have any pain. Okay, kidding, i just lay there. Then my father came out of his room and asked me what's wrong. I don't know why and how but there was that feeling in my throat that was like a swollen bubblegum pressing against the insides of my throat. And that kinda forced my tears out. By the time i said I had cramps, I was crying so hard i could barely speak properly. I cried only 10% due to pain i think. =.=
Then he got my mum and my mum was being...well...my mum. She actually wanted me to go to school as usual. Im like [in my tearing-sniffing fit] very pain... Then she finally budged when i said there wasn't anything important today. [She thought i had prelims today lol].
So yea, that's why i didnt go to school. I didn't 'play along' with the conspiracy* and none of you ought to doubt my integrity cos no one ever has and i'd never lie on my blog. Cos it's a journal of my life and i'd never wanna remember a lie ten years from now.
I even rushed all my homework and packed my bag for today and im still wearing my school u from this morning. I was too shagged to change. And i think i should go be some random calefare with a crying scene. Sure can one. Hey, at least got money to earn.
*the 'conspiracy' is not safe to be blogged about. But it does not concern me this time.
What would I do to make you smile again
Sunday, August 24, 2008 @ 6:35 PM
It's been raining for the entire day.
I wonder why the sky's so gloomy. Maybe it's grieving for me, and maybe fellow other studs studying [or, attempting to study] their asses off. Or maybe it's another premonitition for tomorrow's geog.
Shit.
I didn't do her homework. Like i said on dewaine's blog, i just PLOPPED. In the midst of the second question. GAH why do humans have the ability to procrastinate? God, you're spoiling us, y'know.
And yea, i kinda realised that tomorrow's our last lesson in school. Well, kind of...
Cos after that is Prelims and way too shortly after is already O's.
I seriously don't even feelready.
Shit.
And i have a [very unorganized] draft of stuff happening during my hiatus [yea..i secretly broke my hiatus] but sheesh im no mood for such kinda blogging anymore. The ones where i go AHAHAHA at everything. I don't know why im so grouchy now. Maybe its just the sky.
Anyway, i think im really gonna do a genuine hiatus for now. Till idk-when.
And the song Footsteps in the Sand by Leona Lewis is damn nice. I remember i once blogged the story... Hold on i'll try to find it.
K, here it is;
One night a man had a dream. He dreamed that he was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand:
one belonging to him, and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. he also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it:
"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow ; you'd walk with me all the way. but I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints.I don't understand why when i needed you most you would leave me."
The Lord replied "My son, my precious child; I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints,
Yea, that's my sis in some competition. You can vote as many times as you want. SO VOTE. Because you're very pretty/handsome.
p/s I know im supposed to be on hiatus but who cares, really.
Crossing out the crosses
Monday, August 18, 2008 @ 5:29 PM
Came back from my chem/phy mock practical and hell, i think im so not gonna get distinction. But i dont really care since its not prelims, let alone O's.
ANYWAY, lets cut stuff short since im supposed to be starting myhardcore hiatus today, at approximately 6pm, till 6pm sunday.
AIN'T THAT AWESOME?!?!
>=O
K, whatever, so here's what i wanted to show you:
So apparently i suddenly decided to look at my blogstats which i practically neglected for like dno how many months ever since i stuffed the code into my template in mid-jan. [Half way i did go and see lah, just forgot when.]
SO, those were the stats for June 2008.
You do not really needa know what each colour bar stand for [and i cant remember anyway] BUT HELL, LOOK AT THAT NUMBER! IT'S A BLODDYF'INGLY TRIPLE SIX.
And what month is June? the 6th month.
AHHHHHHHHH MY BLOG IS SO CURSED. NO WONDER SO MANY PEOPLE BROKE UP IN JUNE. Okay. kidding. Im not that superstitious. But yea, it's kinda cool in a way. HEH.
Y'know, im totally risking being jinxed by posting this, i dont know. BUT WHO CARES. If you see this post deleted later on, means something REALLY did happen to me and you needa start worrying. =D
Alright, take care people, REMEMBER MY KEWLDORK-HIATUS AND DONT BOTHER CHECKING MY BLOG FOR UPDATES.Till this Saturday, that is.
It's when you pray with such faith that you cry, cry
Thursday, August 14, 2008 @ 4:33 PM
GAHHHH yes, just now was english O'level orals. I feel so psyched now, i dont know why. Time passed so fast, it could fly When it was all over, i said oh my oh my All i knew was that i did try To get a distinction...or didn't I?
Oops, sorry, had that impulse to do the rhyming thing again. Im waaaay too irrational now.
*exhales* So yea..lets all skip to the actual orals. I apparently didn't make my IC yet [the pink one] and so i lost some time and first-impression points maybe.
Examiner A: Good afternoon, can i have your IC and entry proof please? Me: erm, i don't have my IC. Yet. *looks at ez-link card* Examiner B: Oh..so you're younger than all your peers? Me: *shocked as to why she suddenly asked that when she's supposed to be asking me to start reading* Yea... *thinking; shit, i just said yea instead of yes* Examiners: Ahh..okay, you may start reading now.
I think it's so pleasant when you can blame everything on a late birthday. Cos i was supposed to have made it already but i didn't and everyone's like Ohh cos you 1993 right? Nice. Perfect excuse, don't you think?
Anyway;
Me: *starts reading* Examiner B: Erm, don't read so loud cos you know, the students below.... Me: *shocked again* Oh oh ok..
Seriously, i think my heart was throbbing so hard i couldn't even hear myself.
All in all, it all went so fast, and im pretty happy that one of the conversation topics was on Competition and HELL YEA I WAS PRAYING FOR IT. =D Im a bloddy lucky bitch. Bite me. Ok kidding.
I guess it works this way; when you get so disappointed with something, something else comes along and surprises you. Unfairness; some people speak of it. That's cos they never count their blessings.
But then again, i daren't say i did well for this oral. Everytime i think i did well, results are so far below expectations. Im just gonna leave it to God and pray for the best.
Aight, good luck to all those taking the orals tomorrow!! ^^
Best friends are when you both are pissed but end up laughing.
Monday, August 11, 2008 @ 11:36 AM
GAH. Im not pissed anymore. TEEE HEEEE.
Day by Day
@ 10:38 AM
It's the memories that bring repeated joy.
Saturday, August 09, 2008 @ 8:00 PM
Haha while you people were watching the NDP i was reading back on my convos. I was like stiffling my laughter in front of my comp, with my mum watching the NDP behind me. Here are some: [im always the one in light blue]
I like Narnia.
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HA! All pick-up lines are COPYRIGHT CONSTANCE. And they were all thought of on the spot. =D
______________________________________________ Speaking of tech-savvy..
And omg, Shine for Singapore keeps playing...ahh it's kinda nice anyway.
43--not that old yet.
@ 12:38 PM
It just hit me that today's already National Day.
I'm not gonna watch tv. Let alone watch that speech by LHL. I know why Singaporeans so kiasu already. Cos the gah-men also so kiasu; one speech, every channel. Can't even watch whatever the telly's for.
Okay, im just kidding. Dont sue me. Happy 43rd, Singapore!
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Hey, i think it's gonna rain. Hope you peeps at Marina Bay have your transparent umbrellas [i think they're hell cool. Can give me?]. Have fun! I'm gonna ..play my comp games. Yar. im hell much of a nerd.
Running like the wind. Well, like the slow wind.
Friday, August 08, 2008 @ 7:25 PM
[PICTURES FROM TODAY ARE ON DEWAINE'S BLOG. IM TOO LAZY TO UPLOAD.]
Yeap, today was Sports Day!
Lazy to blog bout it but yea...was so close to a medal. Ah well. Had fun anyway.
Dental was okay.....so expensive. One trip already $150. To think parents have so much cash eh..
Anyway, when i came out the first person i saw was this guy. He stared at me, i stared back THEN MY FATHER STARED AT HIM ALSO. LOL. Apparently he was tracing the direction of my gaze.
Oh yea, i forgot to bring my IC [ez-link card] so i had to manually write everything. =.= And the woman cant pronounce my name at all please.
Aight, im real lazy tonight so i shant blog much. Goodnight!
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Me: Why do we have wisdom teeth? Dad: Ask God. Do they have any use? No. Then why do we have them? Why are they called wisdom teeth? Why do they only grow when we're older? Cos they're smart. They don't have to work.
My father is so....lol-worthy.
Rhapsody of August
Thursday, August 07, 2008 @ 6:23 PM
OOO i forgot to say in my previous post. Yesterday after school when walking with dewaine, sarah and alina, we saw this guy from Bedok Green. Then all of us went like EH? HE LOOKS VERY FAMILIAR. *looks at each other* Huh? You also know him?! Yea! I always see him when walking to school!! Yea same!!!
ROFL. How much affinity do we share, i wonder. And no, FYI, hes the toot toot kind. The kind who tugs at his bag strap while walking, slightly hunched.
Today, was PC then that 3 periods of geog. I promise i was attentive for the first two but my A.D.D. acted up by the third. MM kept staring at me. Like real obviously but i was so oblivious. Till dewaine couldn't stand it and nudged me to tell me. :/ Thank goodness im a lucky bitch; i didnt get into direct trouble this time.
During english, Mrs Tay called me up while others were preparing for their oral practice to clarify my birth cert. number. Cos apparently she was wondering why im the only one whose BC number starts with '93' instead of '92'. Yea, been asked that my entire life.
Chinese; usual. Talking only. HAHA NATOness.
After A.maths, HEH! Elizabeth and i got bloddy high. xD Cracked up at like everything. Especially the reaction test. Here's the results: Elizabeth Liew: Too fast. Grabs pen even before released. Constance Cher: Waaaaaaay too slow. Lets pen drop entirely before closing...air. =.= Yea. The sad sad truth.
Oh! And Prod the monstur! And Plobbie! And Spike! haha im not gonna tell you what those are. Ahh, all in all, today was hell heavenly great. *grins* I guess when i start the day lethargic, I end the day dizzily high. Reverse logic. Lol.
Oh wait, im not done with my post yet. Yea, im a notorious long-winded blogger. Followed Lys to the tailoring shop, then the $1 shop i never knew existed and bought loadsa snacks for tomorrow. Tomorrow's National day celebrations/ Sports day/ OLYMPICS day/ dental appointment. Coolness. 08/08/08. My index no. times 3.
Eastpoint again, saw tricia and the rest, waved, intended to buy bubble tea but was too crowded to we went to this clothes shop first. While inside, we heard the girls sitting outside laughing like constantly. In a real annoying witchy laugh too. That's one of my pet peeves..
Random convo: D: I hate ___. So ugly. Me: Nah, actually i dont hate her. I like her. She makes me feel more confident. *laughs* I feel more self-assured.. *laughs more*
Finally bought our bubbletea then followed dewaine to Watsons then we met Natalie. Somemore in between stuff....then the sky became super dark. By the time i was sitting in the bustop it was already raining. And bus-stops are examples of ineffective rain shelters.
By the time i reached home the rain miraculously was reduced to a mere drizzle. Then when i switched on the comp, the rain became real heavy. Thunder gave me this major shock. =.=
I actually dreamt of the national day rehearsal, and guess who were the ones to set off the fireworks? ST. PATRICKS BOYS.
WTS.
WHYYYYY!!! I swear, i so do not know anyone from that school. Let alone like anyone there. Heck the SAC 'tradition' of getting St. Pats bfs. IM NOT INTERESTED.
And this is like the second time they're haunting me in my sleep. First time was me in this coffeeshop opposite that school, telling my friend something like "Eee..St. Pats? Not very good lah"
I don't even know if that 'coffeeshop' exists in reality.
I think i've been so haunted ever since that day my parents drove past St. Pats school and i saw how big their school was [in comparison to SAC lah] and i blurted "I should just come to this school." And my mum went "HUH? ST PATS GUYS SCHOOL EH!"
I was just randomly rabbling away..
The previous night's was waaaaaay scarier. I was getting stalked by this G-kid. Hell freaky. Literally.
Oh yea, in case you didn't know, KC girls and SAC girls are old rivals. Of what? Guys. From St. Pats somemore. *rolls eyes*
Yea apparently according to seniors [ and reiterated by dewaine], KC girls [not all, of course] hate SAC cos we 'steal' their guys. Maybe vice versa. But it seems like the sense of rivalry is coming more from them.
Then i uncontrollably said "But if they themselves cannot get the guy then why blame us!"
So lame. I swear not to get a St.Pats bf. I swear. Not that im afraid of incurring KC's wrath but YEA what's so good bout that school! Besides their nice uniform.
I think rivalry in terms of sports or whatsoever is so much more rational. Like how SJI and ACS are rivals cos of sports. [according to Jeryl]. But they have to get police on standby when they have competitions. Cos surely a fight will erupt. They even bring weapons.. Guys are so scary. Lol.
Oh and Ms. M. was saying how SJI guys make good husbands. ROFLMAOOL!!!
AH HAHAHHA okay...?
K im digressing way too much.
Anyway, school was fun today. Went to Eastpoint after, and yea, was fun. Pardon my limited vocab. Im just feeling lazy now.
I tried to camwhore with my sister's Mac again and geez, THE BATT QUIT ON ME HALFWAY. I didn't even destroy the evidence yet. So yea, she had the thrill of her life when she saw it. =.=
BUT!!! I took away her thrill just as i gave it. I destroyed alllll the pics when she walked to the kitchen to forage. HAHAHA! I'VE GOT POTENTIAL TO BE A SPY.
Who can accomplish such a task within less than a minute? ME! =D
And she was so elated she has something to blog about. That freaking try-hard. HAHHAHAA now she can only post HER own pics! Heavily-photoshopped, i confess on her behalf. I? I PS noob lah. N00bNub. Not like i really need photoshopping anyway. Heh.
Yeap. I went to sleep giggling away.
Tell me, you minions
Tuesday, August 05, 2008 @ 3:35 PM
Yea, i came to school late today. And what a bad day indeed. I was like one minute away, i swear. I saw the primary school gate close in my face. Okay, not exactly in my face but yea you get my drift.
Then i was standing beside Mrs C. while saying the pledge and cos i was distracted by this very cute primary school kid, my fist was still on my heart when it was over. Then Mrs C. had to go say as though i was doing something punishable "Finish already lah, aiyo!" =.=
Oh and now, my school is more high-tech. Heh, they scan our ez-link cards. No more filling in forms.
And Mrs C. picked on my hair. Said it was too long. I wanted to shout COME TO SCHOOL LATE ALREADY WHERE GOT TIME TO TIE HAIR! But no point. Was made to ask others for a rubberband or whatever i can tie my hair up with but no one had. So i didn't bother.
Went to hall for assembly, filled in LEAPS form and BLODDYF'. I GOT D7. HEY, my CCA's attendance was perfect from sec1 to 3 ok!? And how dare they give me a zero for Leadership, zero for participation, and zero for achievements?!?! Excuse me, who helped your school get that freaking plaque for the SKM competition? [Yea i know, the SKM one was stupid but still!!]
AND I DARE SAY I PARTICPATE. Why else d'you think i was in the drama room for 6 hours a week, huh? Bloddy hell. And when i asked the Ms. *smth, i forgot her name* , all she could tell me was that my sec4 attendance was less than 75%. Right...so i spent like about 500 hours of my life [no exggeration here] all for a grade like D7?! Tell me how i deserve that please. Before i start defaming the school and im sure Ms M. wouldn't like that.
And more bad stuff. E.maths test, i so cannot get my distinction. A.maths, class got reprimanded by Mr P. Eh wait "I don't mean for this to be a scolding session, its mean to be a wake-up session". Yea.
Recess was bad too, since my dental is only on friday and im still suffering right now on my macaroni.
CMECS was about how we ought to be preparing for our O's NOW. Mmm and she did some kinda therapy on us. REWARDS and REGRETS. Mine was about getting 9 points for L1R5. =D Regrets; needless to say.
A.maths; the canal released its....'natural fumes' again. Mr P. was so funny; he stuffed tissue into his nostrils and that was distracting as hell. When he took them out, erm..the tissue had erm...stuff.
Then was physics. As the physics rep, i was supposed to go find Mr Q. but damn, Mrs C saw me and made me tie my hair before going anywhere. Impromptu tying makes my hair look like the Audi's 'pointy ponytail' thingy. And, unlike lians, i do not like my hair to look like that.
Dewaine and i got kinda high during physics in the lab. xD Assembly, then home. OOO i camwhored with my sister's Mac. So cool lah. Let you see some:
=O I'VE A TWIN! Oh yeahhhh My twin looks like me. We got the same slanted teeth even. My mouth and jaw looks distorted here. Lol. OH! My macaroni!